The saddest day was when you told me you were leaving. Nothing else comes even close. It felt like a death. The life that I had found was now ending.
I laid in bed, staring at the ceiling and cried silently all night. My eyes were swollen off and on for days as I walked through my life. I could push the feelings down for a time but then I needed to go off by myself and cry.
There was no way that I could fight the feelings. No way to make the pain go away. It was as real and deep as if a knife was plunged in my heart.
You were being ripped away from me. All that would be left was a jagged bleeding hole.
I didn’t know how I would make it. I could not picture my life with you gone. In an intellectual way I knew life would go on but I could not see past the pain to know how.
Luv, that day was only sadness and I still can not see any good in it. This is what I mean. With Fading I am sad but I know it means that your life is moving on. Where is the good in you leaving?